Its hardest when you were nearly there...

...that's when its easiest to lose it. That's when we ought to take care not to lose it. That's when we very often don't .  We are undone when we tingle with the first, the faintest, the most teasing touches of sweet triumphal currents. And then..an unforeseen smack in the face. A blast of icy water amid a feverish chill. A brusque shake in the wee moments of dawn, at the sweetest peak of  exquisite slumber. Like the linear asymptote, we approach our goal arbitrarily closely but never quite touch it. Failure is hardest to accept when you were nearly 'there'.

Focus man...focus!

P.S - Danny Bagucci and I have started a joint blog right here:

-------------> LINK TO A VERY COOL BLOG :)<--------------------------

Be sure to check it out and possibly leave a comment :D

Dear YHWH

Dear YHWH,

I know you're tired of hearing this, but it's different this time...

This time I remember...

I remember what You asked of me. What I promised to do. What You promised in return. How I started. How far I've come. What I lost. How I lost it. How I changed. Why I changed....

I remember the tang of hopelessness; its glutinous substance trailing through my innards as it writhed and wriggled through them like a fat mollusc...

I remember my tears...I remember Your Presence...it was all there was anyway...

I'm grateful for how it all turned out...

And I'm sorry I let go...

I know you're tired of hearing this, but it's different this time...

This time I remember.
 

PS – I cannot end this post without saying a word about two incredible friends I made on blogger, who helped me keep my sanity through a confusing period. Danny, whom I met when he came to Lagos and will be sure to stick with for a VERY long time. And Buttercup, my very best girl.

There was also Rita, though still a distant acquaintance wrote me two of the best emails I have ever received.

And Caramel....whom I owe a lot of apologies...

PPS - I have recently made another acquaintance whom I shall refrain from mentioning just to be mischievous :D Peakaboo...I seeeeee you